it's been quite a while since my last blog. and many things happened within the period of hiatus. when before, i only care about consequences, now it seems that my situation now is on a "wait-and-see" manner. and i like it this way. very unmindful of the things that surround me. well, i do care, but not that much anymore. i learned that by being honest with yourself, and being loyal to yourself, you create a world that you never imagined before. it's a world where all your frustrations are transformed into inspirations, and the more failure you get, the more you persist on your goal. it may not be a clear goal up ahead, but at least, you're learning from the situations. that for me is a sign of development, as a person, and as an achiever.